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im thinking about it.. =)

im blogging again.. is this what they call the modern day diary?? guess they’re right..hehe.. i have nothing much to say except that im stuck with pharmacology for a month already and i hate it..i cant move on without mastering all the drugs and their actions..geez..nyhow, im much happier with my life now than ever before. with great beauty comes great responsibility.. hahaha

CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Can you install LOVE? CUSTOMER: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART, ma’am? CUSTOMER: Yes, I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: What programs are running, ma’am? CUSTOMER: Let me see……I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now. CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its’ own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. How-ever, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off, ma’am? CUSTOMER: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: My pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased. CUSTOMER: Okay, I’m done. LOVE has started installing itself auto matically. Is that normal? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Yes, it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message? CUSTOMER: Yes, I do. Is it completely installed? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades. CUSTOMER: Oops……I have an error message already! CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: What does the message say? CUSTOMER: It says, "ERROR 412 — PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS." What does that mean? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Don’t worry ma’am, that’s a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in nontechnical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before it can "LOVE" others. CUSTOMER: So what should I do? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Can you find the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"? CUSTOMER: Yes, I have it. CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Excellent, you are getting good at this! CUSTOMER: Thank you. CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the "MY HEART" directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, REALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS. DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also you need to delete SELFCRITICIZE.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back. CUSTOMER: Got it. Wow! My HEART is filling up with really neat files.SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now, and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT. COM are copying themselves all over my HEART. CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One thing before I go…… CUSTOMER: Yes? CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its’ various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people, and they will return some really neat modules back to you. CUSTOMER: I will. Thank you for your help! CUSTOMER SERVICE REP: You’re very welcome!

happy holidays everyone.. wala lang, just blogging around. this year has brought me a lot.. lots of pains, laughters, friends, and most of all lessons.. (corny haha).. you want me to elaborate? i mean enumerate? well some are inspiring while others are despairing, i graduated, yes at last i graduated from school (haha) last april (with flying colors ba).. board exams? fortunately yes, with all the prayers and dedication ba naman.. i got work and i met the most funny pipol at work, haggie’s dry, i will miz u guys,, before y and i split up, (daw atom ba) and he’ll be pursuing his dreams on the other side of the world next year, bayaan naman ko ba.. k lng, im happy now.. i learned a lot dis year.. love you 2006! muah

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned - that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned - that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned - that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned - that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something. I’ve learned - that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do but to the best you can do. I’ve learned - that it’s not what happens to people that’s important. It’s what they do about it. I’ve learned - that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I’ve learned - that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I’ve learned - that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I’ve learned - that it’s a lot easier to react than it is to think. I’ve learned - that you should always leave loved ones withloving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned - that you can keep going long after you think you can’t. I’ve learned - that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I’ve learned - that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I’ve learned - that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. I’ve learned - that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned - that learning to forgive takes practice. I’ve learned - that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it. I’ve learned - that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I’ve learned - that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I’ve learned - that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up. I’ve learned - that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned - that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I’ve learned - that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. I’ve learned - that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated. I’ve learned _ that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it. I’ve learned - that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological. I’ve learned - that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned - that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned - that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief. I’ve learned - that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I’ve learned - that sometimes when my friends fight, I’m forced to choose sides even when I don’t want to. I’ve learned - that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. I’ve learned - that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned - that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I’ve learned - that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever. I’ve learned - that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I’ve learned - that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process. I’ve learned - that there are many ways of falling and staying in love. I’ve learned - that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I’ve learned - that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most. I’ve learned - that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you. I’ve learned - that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I’ve learned - that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains. I’ve learned - that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us. I’ve learned - that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. I’ve learned - that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned - that although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used. I’ve learned - that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.

Lately, I feel like in the mood to write but it’s weirder than I thought, no exact words seem to come out of my mind and I really had a hard time figuring out why. Whenever I find myself complacent, I tend to write less. Perhaps, I write to have a clear thought of something profound within me. Lately, I have been so very busy that I even forgot I am still in the process of recuperation. Hehe. I have never taken a seat to get queries of uncertainty or ponder the meaning of life (sshh.. that’s what I always do). This year has brought a lot in my life (both promising and despairing) and Im gonna write a summary by the end of the year.. It’s not that I’m in no mood now but it’s just that I feel, a lot will still come and surely will be added in the list.. In the past, I always hate routines but despise change at the same time. Now Im learning to love whatever it is that come my way. It’s not my personality that changed but my perceptions in everything. I’m so much happier with myself and my life right now than I’ve ever
been, that I feel like I’ll be able to handle any storms that come my
way much better than I have in the past. I can have a hundreds of heartbreaks now, not sure though if I can manage not to shed a tear. I have always been an emotional person although in public I tend to laugh more than I cry. Hehe. Maybe the stars are right,  i’m a november hottie– yes, independent but temperamental. Surely, Im gonna have a balance of it soon. I have to end this now, before this butt burns out. Just a thought before I end..
  "Life
is one big road with lots of signs. So when you’re riding through the
ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and
jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake up
and Live!"
–Bob Marley

"I dreamed I had an interview with God.

“So you would like to interview me?” God asked.

“If you have the time” I said.

God smiled. “My time is eternity.”
“What questions do you have in mind for me?”

What do I need to learn in order to get by and move on?

He answered:

“To learn that it is not good
to compare yourself to others.”

“To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness.”

“To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those we love,
and it can take many years to heal them.”

“To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least.”

“To learn that there are people
who love us dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings.”

“To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently.”

“To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”

i had my first irate caller a while ago.. huh? and she thinks im gonna let everything sink in? nah.. haha i’ve bin through a lot these days and it’s makin me sick.. im just so thankful about my new work i got to always laugh my lungs out.. and not to mention i never get the chance to think of nonsense and stupid problems concerning this broken heart hahaha.. got to go im sleepy

I have learned the difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, that love doens’t mean leaning and company doensn’t mean security. I began to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. I learned to build all my roads today because I have learned that tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. I have learned that even sunshine burns if you get too much.. So now, I’m planting my own garden and decorating my own soul instead of waiting for others to. I learned to be strong and endure, simply because I can..